Thoughts of the day :)

I'm sitting here at the V.A. clinic and waiting to be seen by the doctor. I sit here thinking of the great and beautiful things in life that God has given me. Great people, new beginnings. I just had a realization, whether proven or not, but for a moment, I want to share my thoughts with you.

Its amazing that through life that all of the hardships we face harden up our heart. Its also amzing how we learn to survive when we have no where to hide and no where to escape to. When we are faced with harsh reality, we break apart and can't run from our own pain. This makes us less trusting and more suseptable to putting walls of defense up. The truth is, we never truely lose our childlike defenses, we are just handle it with more maturity.

Call it vulnerable if you will, vulnerability keeps you healthy and keeps you alive. When you open your heart, it makes you stronger than you could ever imagine. If you keep loving and learning from past mistakes, you can keep yourself open to vulnerable feelings. Feelings of love, feelings of pain. Pain and pleasure are constant. There is no eternal pleasure without pain and pain without pleasure.

I just know that I feel a safe vulnerability to the love of my life. My walls have come down and I love it. I just love him.