Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Focus on the eternal

‎...I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my work, and this was the reward for all my labor. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun...So I hated life, because all the work that is done under the sun is grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. Ecclesiastes 2:10-11, 17

No matter how much we see, we're never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we're not content. History repeats itself...Ecclesiastes 1:8-9 NLT

Therefore we do no lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what we see is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Saturday, November 26, 2011

HAHAHAHAHA

WOW! Next time someone tells me to read a book, I will do so.

Thank you to the book suggestions, I'm reinventing myself in some ways and letting go in soooooo many other ways.

YESSSS!!! I'm FREE!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes we wonder why people come into our lives. As soon as they come into our lives, we grow, we change, we build a bond. During our time spent with these people, we often laugh, we cry, we show strength, give our opinions, and we show weakness. Our hearts tend to open up to the people that are "like us" or that seem to "like us." Then it all crashes in our face due to certain differences.

Ah yes, that would lead me to write the quote, "Not everyone is going to like you, no matter how hard you try." Once we learn to accept this, then life gets easier. Or does it? I guess when we give our hearts to people that we feel "like us" or are "like us", we automatically hope it never ends. Humans tend to run in packs like wild animals and they don't like to be cast from their "tribe." It's when we tend to be pushed away and left to figure where we stand, then we know we stand alone. We tend to become cautious and bitter. Even jaded and wounded.

No amount of comfort, venting, or crying will fix these situations. Only time heals wounds, and if they're not property tended to, then there is a good chance the wounds don't ever heal and leave many scars of uncertainty.

Just keep the faith, we are only human. Thanks for hearing me out.

KLF

My Problem...

I suffer from nevergiveupitis, guess it's better than imaquit disease :)

Yes I made this up. Yes, both are contagious. One takes time, the other will kill ya ;)

Spend a lifetime...

You can spend a lifetime trying to "figure yourself out" when truth is, you know who you are. Sometimes people carry life's burdens on their shoulders. These thoughts can evoke painful memories which can create spirals of uncertainty in oneself. These memories can strike up nightmares or flashbacks which can burden the soul. It's your choice to carry those burdens or to move on through spirituality.

“I can do nothing on my own. As I hear, I judge, and my judgment is just, because I seek not my own will but the will of him who sent me." John 5:30

And as he was setting out on his journey, a man ran up and knelt before him and asked him, “Good Teacher, what must I do to inherit eternal life?” And Jesus said to him, “Why do you call me good? No one is good except God alone. Mark 10:17-18

LOVE WHO YOU ARE!!!

It's funny, because once you compete in a sport like bodybuilding you learn how much narcissism overtakes you. Once you see your anatomy through your skin, you're screwed for life. Then you have a warped outlook on your body and your mind becomes more imbalanced. Competing is great. It has it's perks. You can make a small amount of money on the side doing shoots since you're in peak condition. You might score a small sponsorship. You might even win a Pro Card. In reality, this isn't about a career "as a competitor", it should be a hobby you enjoy. Trust me, once that hobby becomes a career, the passion subsides.

Just recently I competed just to strive for a goal. 10 weeks out, I decided to dedicate my time and my diet to training for the Southeastern USA's. I definitely wasn't 100%, but I was proud to be up there. At that moment, I realized all that I've accomplished and the sense of pride overcame me. I knew I didn't "belong" up there as a "Level 5 competitor" this time around, but I definitely did belong up there. I knew where I've been, and I could always "show" better. It's not always about that. When I heard the crowd screaming, all the love overwhelmed me. I wasn't ashamed, I was feeling ultra nervous, only not to disappoint my people. Other than that, I had a feeling of great pride and sportsmanship.

This thought came to my head that Friday before the show, and I hope it inspires you...

"No matter if you're 160 lbs or 105 lbs, you will still have the same smile, the same goofy laugh, the same attitude, the same witty jokes, the same quirky personality. The sarcasm, the same taste in food, the same philosophies on life in general. The difference is only a number on the scale. How is that they can say that about age, but not weight? Age is just a number, so is weight. Yes, you can't change age, but you can change weight. Well I say, be happy with you. Who says what makes you as a person. Only you do. Never sacrifice your health just because you want to look a certain way. Balance is important. This world is not all about you. People will still love you for you, and if they only see a number, then they don't really know what love is."

This life is meant to be enjoyed with others, and to be experienced. Sometimes we get caught up in "I". Isn't it awesome when you get into a conversation with someone and uncover the layers, you really don't SEE a NUMBER on the scale. Cause when they laugh, you laugh. When they joke, you joke back. When they voice their opinion, you come back with your opinion.

Life is grand. Find some spirituality. I know I have. I have come a long way, that's why I'm speaking through experience. I found it important to voice my thoughts. It's only an opinion. I'm proud of who I've become. You should be proud of you too.

<3 Much Luv